読んでみました。１５年ぶりです。
僕は、昔２回入院し（３回ではなかったと思う）、つきあっていた人と別れました。でも、つきあっていた間も、ずっと片思いの女性のことが頭から離れませんでした。僕の周りには自殺した人はいませんが、立場や状況、時間の前後関係などの違いはあっても、１５年前に読んだ当時は何となく登場人物が身近に感じられたと思います。僕は鎧を着ていて、何度も死のうと思い、何度か自殺を試みました。死は身近になかったけど、自分の中の生と死はそれほど離れていなかったし、むしろいつも同居していたように思えます。
今、僕はレイコさんより年をとっています。ワタナベ君のような感受性も無くなってしまっています。でも、なぜか町内にレイコさんがいて、彼女をきっかけに昔の感覚が、鎧を着た僕がよみがえって、その鎧を外すチャンスがくるような気がしています（本当はレイコさんじゃなくて直子がいいんだけど）。もう今では、鎧はぼろぼろになり、身を守るすべにもなっていませんが。それでも「死の観念」は消えたわけではなく、心のどこかに身を隠しています。それが時々顔を出すのですが、今は死ぬことを恐れています。
Mon May 30 22:00:31 2002
⟨impressions⟩
I read it. It's been 15 years.
I was hospitalized twice a long time ago (I don't think it was three times) and broke up with the person I was dating. But while I was dating, I couldn't get rid of my unrequited love. No one around me committed suicide, but even though there are differences in position, situation, and time context, when I read it 15 years ago, I think the characters seemed to be familiar to me. I was wearing armor and thought I would die many times, so I tried to commit suicide several times. Death wasn't close to me, but life and death in me weren't that far apart, and it seems like I've always lived together.
Now, I am older than Reiko. The sensitivity like Watanabe has disappeared. However, for some reason, there is Reiko in the town, and I feel that her old feelings revived when I wore armor, and I got a chance to remove that armor (actually, not Reiko). Naoko is good). Armor is now ragged and no longer a way to protect yourself. Still, the "idea of death" has not disappeared, and it is hidden somewhere in the heart. It sometimes comes out, but now I'm afraid to die.
Mon May 30 22:00:31 2002
I read it. It's been 15 years.
I was hospitalized twice a long time ago (I don't think it was three times) and broke up with the person I was dating. But while I was dating, I couldn't get rid of my unrequited love. No one around me committed suicide, but even though there are differences in position, situation, and time context, when I read it 15 years ago, I think the characters seemed to be familiar to me. I was wearing armor and thought I would die many times, so I tried to commit suicide several times. Death wasn't close to me, but life and death in me weren't that far apart, and it seems like I've always lived together.
Now, I am older than Reiko. The sensitivity like Watanabe has disappeared. However, for some reason, there is Reiko in the town, and I feel that her old feelings revived when I wore armor, and I got a chance to remove that armor (actually, not Reiko). Naoko is good). Armor is now ragged and no longer a way to protect yourself. Still, the "idea of death" has not disappeared, and it is hidden somewhere in the heart. It sometimes comes out, but now I'm afraid to die.
Mon May 30 22:00:31 2002
限りのない喪失と再生。今いちばん激しい、100パーセントの恋愛小説!
暗く重たい雨雲をくぐり抜け、飛行機がハンブルク空港に着陸すると、天井のスピーカーから小さな音でビートルズの『ノルウェイの森』が流れ出した。僕は一九六九年、もうすぐ二十歳になろうとする秋のできごとを思い出し、激しく混乱し、動揺していた。限りない喪失と再生を描き新境地を拓いた長編小説。
暗く重たい雨雲をくぐり抜け、飛行機がハンブルク空港に着陸すると、天井のスピーカーから小さな音でビートルズの『ノルウェイの森』が流れ出した。僕は一九六九年、もうすぐ二十歳になろうとする秋のできごとを思い出し、激しく混乱し、動揺していた。限りない喪失と再生を描き新境地を拓いた長編小説。
[ ISBN-13 : 978-4062035156 ]
